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The familiar prayer

Today, I’m letting go of my thoughts and giving you control over them. See them, analyze them, change them, and use them for your own gratification.

Just like that.

Honestly, I’m not afraid of what you might find. They are a lot to handle, I know. But I do believe this is not too much for you. Yes you. Right ?

Do you think it’s odd that I’m doing this?

Well, I don’t want to worry anymore. You know what worrying does to me- what it does to my soul, and how it affects my actions, plans, and future. Are you ready to take control? Why am I even asking this? You are always ready. I trust you.

1, 2, 3, now! You’re in charge now.

You should see the smile on my face- oh so bright. So bright that it can light up the darkness in a room. And the lightness I feel in my spirit- like a heavy load has been lifted off my neck. I am myself again.

I gave God optimum Control

Some few months ago, this was what I did- a prayer I said. I gave God complete control over my mind, my thoughts. I found myself worrying so much that it drained life out of me, literally. My face took the hit first. Like unfavorable pregnancy signs, my face became a real definition of sadness. You could see the sad lines carefully stretched on both sides of my mouth.

Then my body responded rapidly. I became lean at a point, and put on weight at another point. There were times I was locked up in my head so much that I wasn’t really aware of my environment. I think my habits took over.

Sometimes I would be going out to get some stuff for the house, and I’m in the market, but I don’t recall how I got there. Yep, my habit took over.

I’ve been going to the market for most of my adult life so I didn’t really need to be conscious to know where to walk, which bus -stop to get a car, where the footbridge was, and where to get all the stuff from the market. Or? What do you think? I think it’s either habit or God or both. Yes!

You know something? It wasn’t just about my worries. It was the ideas that came to mind. Some things I wanted to do to myself, for myself, and to others. How I would want things to run, my impatience in waiting for the results of my choices and expectations.

Confession

I must confess! I’m no more in that state again so I will confess. Some thoughts that came in mind were horrible. They were against the instructions of God. They were unholy thoughts.

There were times where some people offended me so much that I would think of ungodly ways I could use to get revenge for myself. The thought of it really satisfied me. Just that I didn’t have the guts to ‘do revenge.’

I guess I was afraid. Or maybe I was just hurt. That person in my thoughts wasn’t me. I didn’t want it to be me, but I did enjoy paying them back in my head. An enjoyment I’m very ashamed of now.

I figured my ‘unholy’ thoughts, my worries, and my irrational decisions were affecting me very much. In ways that I didn’t recognize. They affected me physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

On the outside, I was just a normal human being living life, making decisions, working hard, and at some point, enjoying life. On the inside I didn’t really recognize what ate the best part of myself away. Till I did a self assessment then I realized the power of my thoughts and the power of God over my thoughts if I give him control.

‘Somehow you want me’

This reminds of a song by Tenth Avenue North- Control (Somehow you want me)

“…God You don’t need me
But somehow You want me
Oh, how You love me
Somehow that frees me
To open my hands up
And give You control
I give You control”

It also reminds me of how David surrendered himself to God. The way he gave God the control to steer his life and deal with his enemies. He wouldn’t do it himself because he knew only God’s way is the best.

Even after Saul sought to kill him countless times, David spared Saul’s life when he got the opportunity. He said, “May the Lord avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you.”(1 Samuel 24:12- NIV) Do you see the beauty in that? When God took the revenge wheel, there was no way Saul was going to escape.

Not forgetting how Jesus Christ (God) surrendered to God (himself), “…yet not my will, but yours be done.”- Luke 22: 42. There’s this freedom and strength in surrendering yourself, your will, your thoughts, your power to God who holds all things together. The one with the true power.

God does wonders when you give him Control

God does wonders when you give him control. Especially control over your thoughts. The Bible says he, “perceives my thoughts from afar.”- Psalm 139:2. Verse 4- “before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, oh Lord.”

God knows what you will think about even before you think. He knows what you would say even before you say it. Therefore, he knows how your thoughts are going to affect your life and if you give him control, oh the ecstasy he will create in your life. If he controls your life, so many things you will accomplish.

He will lead you in the way of everlasting- “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting” Psalm 139: 23-24.

He will lead you in the way of everlasting peace of mind, happiness, success, joy, you name it.

Surrender control over the good and bad thoughts

The moment I realized this, I decided to give God control over my thoughts. The good thoughts and the bad thoughts. He should search within them and deal with them. From that day, I handed all my ‘anxious’ thoughts to God. All my decisions, my plans, every aspect of my life. And when these thoughts start to affect my day, I say Lord, you hear it? I’m not in charge! You are! Please do your will. Take control.

And this is where I also encourage you to let go of your thoughts to God. Give God control over all aspects of your life then come back and share with me what you discovered.

God bless you! You know what? Talk to me, share with me some of your ‘anxious thoughts’ and how you’ve dealt with them, in the comments section below. I would love to hear it.